Hey, It's brand new year, 2012.

So, Bye bye 2011!

Most of my friends went out counting down for the arrival of 2012, while I stay at home watching Thailand ghost movie, "Shutter". Well, it's kinda boring too for me to go out counting down at such crowded place with strangers. I don't know. If last time, I would love to hang out till late at midnight. Seeing everyone so enjoy makes me feel my life isn't that miserable. 

But during the last day in 2011, I feel quite emotional and didn't have the mood of going out celebrating. Why arr? Is it because influenced by Him?! I don't want~ I don't want~ >.< I don't want my life be so dull since I'm now facing that situation everyday! Cool daddy, reticent mummy, Sister who does not know how to appreciate family, and another sister who keep sticking to her anime and computer only. Come on! Things won't get better if only me the one who putting effort. 

Okay, talking about him. I demanding him to do a simple thing for me to show that he is actually care of my heart, but he refused to. Is this show that I'm just a role player as girl friend in his eyes, but not in reality? Feel like he is hiding me from everyone. What for?! I don't need a relationship in that way. If you don't want me seriously, just say it out! But remember, it is YOU the one who doesn't know how to appreciate me. 

Kinda in dilemma now actually, in this brand new day, I was wondering should I give up waiting for him? Should I stop myself from giving myself hopes? Since I had been disappointed again and again.